Evening everyone, just a bit of an update from me.
I was feeling so positive when I wrote my last coronavirus blog a week ago, but since then, the reality of the situation has begun to sink in, and I’ve found it a bit of a struggle.
I miss worshipping. I know I can pray to God wherever I want, I know I can sing to God whenever I want, but singing on my own just isn’t the same as singing with other people. There will be things about regular services that we all miss. For Nathan, he has struggled with not having communion with other people. The Bishop has given permission for us priests to have communion on our own, but like with the singing, it’s just not the same without others.
I found it really hard to take a funeral and not be able to offer even a handshake, let alone a hug. I have done two funerals this week, and both families I know fairly well. My natural instinct would have been to give hugs at the end, and I couldn’t. It felt wrong in every way.
I am trying to work out how to preach and give church notices in front of a camera instead of people, and that’s messing with my mind a bit.
And suddenly, my favourite Bible passage, Matthew 6.25-34, when Jesus tells us not to worry about the future, has become very challenging. I am worried about the future. I am worried about getting food, and mostly, other people getting food. I am worried about what will happen in all of this.
But, like I said last time, I’m trying to keep some perspective. Remembering the story about the neighbours bringing my great Grandmother a single egg when my Granny had whooping cough helps with that. On our daily walk today, Nathan and I went past a house selling eggs. There was an honesty box, an option of chicken or duck eggs and at least 2 boxes of each. I need to remember: this. could. be. so. much. worse.
I suppose that the ‘do not worry’ passage does have some logic to it. Worrying will not add a moment to my life, and it certainly won’t make this come to an end any sooner.
So, please feel free to join me in trying to focus on the positive. I loved going outside and cheering our NHS tonight. I am loving daily video chats with my family. I loved that today, that great big blue sky was not broken by condensation trails.
Please do add any nice and positive experiences of your own in the comments!
Bye for now 🙂